M.I.A.

Control was the theme of the last entry. Controlling the game, my outlook on life, and controlling situations when I'm not getting the results I want, in poker or otherwise. Today's theme is responsibility.


As an adult, I have the basic responsibilities of taking care of myself. I need to provide myself with food, shelter, and transportation to and from work so I have the means to do that. Responsibility, as an adult, is still something I'm learning to do.

I've had a combination of outside factors that have prevented me from playing poker every week. I've been sick, and I was responsible enough to stay home to prevent others from getting sick. I was moving, which again goes along with the notion of providing myself shelter. I've been scheduled closing shifts, despite the fact that I've asked for Wednesday evenings off. I did the responsible thing of showing up and doing my work rather than calling out sick. I've also had the responsibility of going to school. In order to graduate, I need to pass the class I'm currently taking. So schoolwork comes before poker.


As an adult, (well, young adult I suppose,) I'm learning how I need to be responsible for myself. I can depend on other people for love and friendship, but I'm the only one who can take care of myself when it comes down to the big things.


Sometimes it totally sucks to be responsible. I hate having to go to work, especially on such a beautiful day like today. But, I will. They depend on me to be there, and I have a responsibility to them to be there. I also need money to provide for myself. And if I don't have money, I'll basically be homeless and starving. And let's face it, the only ones who make starving look good are the supermodels of the world. Ladies, binging and purging is so 1994. Let's move on to having some meat on our bones, mmkay? you can totally afford it.


This week is my last week of school. So, I will be responsible and study for my exams, write my last term paper, and since I'm scheduled to close on Wednesday, I will be at work, closing. Without fussing and whining that I can't go to poker.


I'll be back next week. Watch your cards, but most importantly watch your backs. ;)